2010

finally, 2010!
with a long exhaling... im letting everything in 2009 at rest now. im not gonna hold back anything. i gonna pretend like what that used to happened before is just a nightmare and right now, im wide awake from that whole nightmare. i gonna move on, and look back at him not thinking how useless i am, but HOW GLAD I AM, THAT HE COULD NOT MAKE IT TO MY PRESENT AND FUTURE! in 2010, im not the old julaiha that used to cry over small matter, who is so weak in love. who falls blindly, go heads over heels for any guy. who love a guy whole heartedly. i gonna be strong and stand up for my right. gonna hold back some love, so that i will not be hurt again. to love someone, that i so worthy of my love. not to spend my time, on useless guys. i know, that memories will haunt me, but im not gonna run away from it. i gonna turn that memories into what i call; a lesson learned. i gonna stand back up again and smile with all my heart. im not gonna look at him, thinking that im useless, but i gonna prove to him that, it's a stupid of you to treat me like dat. i'm not gonna be a fool in love again. i gonna find someone that is worth my time and respect me as a girl.
i'm not gonna let other goodd guys off, just because im too hurt because of him. i gonna let this heart open up and to be loved the way i gonna love them:D

dear god, i hope you would grant me all the strength and confidence for me to face this. i know, you love all your followers and you would not let them suffer. i will treat this, as a test for my endurance and patience. everything that happens in life, have a reason behinds it. We were given this test, because God believe that you can overcome it. that's why believe in HIM & everything gonna be alright :D